On wings of integrity: Afternoon Delight

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Afternoon Delight

I visited Spotlight today with justin my lovelyy baby cakes,
and i had never felt a want for something so much in my life before.
The materials, the lace, the on going shelves of fabric after fabric just lit me back up again.
Seeing the ideas flow in my head, like theres no tomorrow taking my mind of the reason why i've changed, why i've felt so dead to the world.
It was more than just walking into a clothing store and finding some pretty dress,
it was ME finding the perfect outfits, ME finding something that i could turn into my own, i could out poor emotion and out poor the regret i have botttled in me on to an outfit that i have personalised and made myself.
It would give me something to be proud of, something to hide behind too stir the questions away.

All this jazz about Spotlight,
Jesus

"You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for"

Richard Siken