On wings of integrity

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Trying to wrap my head around things.
I always know what I want, there's no question about it.
What I can't understand is how other people don't. I can understand how someone can be undecided about life in general, but I don't understand how someone can be undecided about someone else.
You know when you feel something for someone, wether it be hatred, love, sex, friendship... You know that's what you're feeling, I can't get my head around why people choose not to pursue that because they are unsure...
It makes people like me, who know what they want and go after what they want feel lifes strain.
The only thing I ever get confused about is how someone else feels.
TEDIOUS, OH SO MOTHER FUCKING TEDIOUS.

"You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for"

Richard Siken