On wings of integrity: Symptoms

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Symptoms

of Bipolar.
With all seriousness,
For a long long time, I had always thought I suffered from this.
Within the oneday I'm the most happiest energetic person, then the most suicidal synical depressed person,
like I dont think I actually have it and what not, but whatever it is that's happening to me, I hate it.
Like all my ups, all my downs,
It is actually killing me, and I can't seem to find the cure.

"You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for"

Richard Siken